=(

不开心

不开心

不开心啊~

家里最近发生的事真的得却让人心烦
但姐归姐，我是我啊
为什么我也一定要被牵涉
我没不乖啊！！
最近的我像似被囚禁的鸟
也许我爱玩，但我知道分寸
难道你不知道吗？
你女儿我是个怎样的人
其实，这些都不是重点
难道我就是那么的不被信任？
我知道你们只是担心我们
不过，我真的乖阿。

我知道，养儿一百岁，长忧九十九
我不是真的想让你担心
不过希望你想开
=(

灰灰的心情

没有阳光的早晨
细雨淅沥
灰灰的天空
此刻，我的心情也灰灰的
好应景。

看到了一些东西
确实的，影响了今天的心情
感觉自己被遗忘，
其实真的很不开心，
也许是一场误会
但是我真的不敢去证实

以前我真的以我们的友情感到骄傲
如今我还能够吗？
我很珍惜以前的一切，
我真的相信会永远
现在也一样
你们在我心里，不曾变过

心情糟透的今天

好久没到这里了
幸庆还有一个让自己发泄的地方
最近的心情 糟透了
其实说不上什么原因
或者是自己想太多了吧
然而真的不敢去证实
因为担心自己的猜测是对的

今天的心情更被一位不知名的uncle给破坏了
干嘛觉得女生就好欺负
凭什么拍桌子，对我妈发脾气
谈东西是这样子的吗？
我会证实给你看
女生不会好欺负的
哥说的对，与其要他道歉
不如让自己变得更强

心情真得糟透了 ！！！

回忆

莫一个画面，地点，街道，

甚至一张没有日期的照片

或是一句很平常的话

是否都会让自己想起

那原来忘不了的回忆？

即使平凡

即使微小得不起眼

然而却难以忘记

这一个宁夜

是否有着一个怀旧的故事？

人生，总有太多的琐碎

也许，我只是他的一个擦肩的陌路人

也许，我只是他 舞台上的小配角

想念 最伤心

但却最动心的记忆

突然想放风筝

让自己的心情

翱翔

不然就让一场雨

为自己的心情

淅沥

噢，想起了莫些事

那一个他

我是谁？

起风的季节

没有浪漫的故事

独自的游荡

喧哗的人群

寂寞的身影

失落的感觉

渐渐强烈

我是谁？

消失的世界

谁能看得见

走在地平线

走向全世界

早已回不去

原来的起点

找不到灵魂的出口

是否能逆着风飞

我是谁？

你是否也常常这样问自己？

p/s: daddy, when oli u willing talk with me?

爸爸：

那一夜的我难眠
湿了的枕头陪了我一整夜
我知道我让你伤心了
更不应该与你顶嘴
虽然我只是想说出自己的感受
然而我用错了语气
也不应该忘了你的感受
纵使我试着解释
但你已听不进了
即使我再多的眼泪
也收回不了我说过的话
爸，你知道吗？
你的话对我而言
像似一把尖锐的剑
也把我刺伤了
我应该明白
也许你不是生气只是心痛

我知道
你最疼的是我，
最担心的也是我
总说我像豆腐
为什么，我却那么坏
我怎么可以让你伤心了
无论如何
身为孩子的我
的确不可以对你大小声

爸，真的很想亲口说声对不起
但要向你说抱歉
是需要很大的勇气
不知道你记得吗？
那一次，我鼓起了勇气
然而，你却不接受我的道歉
我的心真的碎了
这次的我，
失去了道歉的勇气
我害怕你不理我的样子

爸，今天已是你第三天没和我说话了
这一次又要维持多久呢？
爸，你知道吗？
每一次你不理会我时
我的心也很痛

爸，其实
我真的很想和你说
对不起

爸，对不起

爸，我爱你

我真的不是有心的

真希望爸爸会看到我的道歉

♥

Gong Xi fa cAi everyone ~~
how was ur CNY holidays?
enjoyable?

i love CNY
bcoz ...
ang pau? wrong...
gambling? wrong...
bcoz whole family will gather
even only for few days
for sure, my grandmum is the most happy person
she always countdown for CNY
n she quite nervous
always tell my mum wan to buy this n that
my grandmum has 23 grandchildren
overall , i think got around 35 all of us ^^


this is 1st time "lao sheng" at my hometown ...


my cousins playing games on floor
i had played too....
quite fun ^^

very kawaii cousins
don't misunderstand
actually he smiling

*hope grandmum can happy n healthy always larh~~ *

haiz... tml nid to go rawang

cant join my classmates sing k le....

sob sob T-T.....

至: 14th feb 2010

新年快乐
14th的我应该在hometown了
那是一个没有网络的地方吧
所以提早向大家说声恭喜发财 ^^
我想要好几天才会回来吧
enjoy enjoy the CNY holidays ya ....

同时的，
情人节快乐
这一个节日让我想起了
“爱的正好”

~在情人节的这个晚上，无论是单身的你，
或是已找到真命天子/女的你，
相信爱的正好这句话应该适合套用在大家身上吧？
两个人要投入恋情，所谓的timing、时机、缘分非常重要，
恰恰要爱的正好，不然就会有相见恨晚的遗憾；
两个人相爱就好比两个频道相通、两条平行线相遇，
所以当看着文章的你，
若已经有了伴侣，
一定要好好珍惜，
因为你们“爱的正好” ~

这是我一个朋友因为一首“爱的正好”而又感而写的


“文骏，深深同意你的我，
所以带来这分享
知道疼我的你，应该不会和我收版权吧
不好意思哦 ~~~ =)”

雨，

是否已平静?

对不起，

我知道

你不喜欢我的出现

没有必要

我会躲得远远的

对不起

give peace , a chance

firstly, sorry for my poor english
yesterday, went for a presentation prepared by US3
a very good presentation
yea... a very big hand to u all
beside that, the topic is really touch
"animals hv right too"
after watch some video clips
my tears were rolled
at last, it fall down
mayb i'm a person easy to cry

yes, after the presentation
i tell myself i must try my best to protect our mother nature

as u know,
nowaday are really hot,
when i doing my homework at night
some mosquitos are disturb me
first thing fly on my mind is
" kill those mosquitos"
luckily, i remember what i had told myself in the morning
i has changed my mind
i jz leave the room and take bath again

yea,
although jz a insect
but they feel pain too
i'm sorry that i got the idea to kill them
i'm very sorry
when i told my mum about the presentation
i cried again
OMG, i'm so useless
what can i do for them?
for those get hurt bcoz of me @ humans

give peace a chance

yea,

animals hv right too

...

以为不听不看
也就没感觉
一转身才发现
空气里面依旧飘散着
记忆的气味

為何
一幕又一幕
盤旋在腦里
是快樂
是悲傷
也許對他人而言
不再是什麼

偷偷的回憶
那一絲甜
那一段苦

其實
依然會在乎
他最終屬於誰

有人說﹐
也許失去記憶
才是最好的結局

對﹐也許不再記得什麼
是會輕鬆多了
但﹐再苦的回憶也有一點甜
被遺忘了
豈不很悲哀?
因此
儘管再苦
也許被他人遺忘
我也不願忘了

那一絲甜﹐那一段苦

exhausted

3 days 2 night trip ...
where i went?
my dearest hometown - kuala linggi
this time only me follow my parent back
went there for.... CLEANING
OMG....
opz no...
it's was a spring cleaning
so i should "enjoy" it ^^
the house already "empty" for half year
becoz my grandmum is live with us now
however, all of us hv to go bac there during new year
yea, i really like it...
i mean all the family members gather
sunday, my dad bring me to his primary school
he told me, now the whole school only hv 4+ students
very little ,rite?

my dad's primary school

after my breakfast

is time to work

i wash the floor n painted the wall

this is my 1st time neh

proud ...wakaka

this is the wall i painted

not bad rite? ^^

monday,

i was painted the "qiu qian"

started from 9 a.m

until 1p.m i oli finish it

that not a easy job neh ...

before

after....

pro leh?
this "gong gong" full of my childhood memories...

it can fit around 8 people

although very tired with those job

but i was enjoy also

becoz this house, full of meaning

my grandmum very love her house also

she said she don't want to come k.l

but, i worried ...

we cant let her alone there,

although i knew she very love there

sorry, my dearest grandmum

yea, i love my grandmum ^^

dalaaa....

went to pavilion with my classmates
for ??
shopping? NO...
is our "photo day" ohh...
jz a simple post here...
=p... don't know what to write ><


some of us


yi ling

dear lian



alvin ~~

kawaii yin

pretty li min ~

we took too many pictures ....

it's lazy to upload all ><

hehe.... paiseh ya ~~

^-^ v

i'm sorry my bloggiie and readers
its been more than a week since i blog
wonder still got any readers come here anot...
hehe...
yea, i'm felt bored recently
especially during the lesson in school
my heart always fly away during the lecture
i know i should respect my lecturer
as mr.Esmond Chan told us few day ago
however, sometime it's abit hard for me
the day routine is almost same everyday
wake up -> school -> home -> rest -> homeworks -> sleep
yes, i know i should enjoy my school life as well as posible
because many of my friend told me
school life is much better than work
n i always tell myself also
" just enjoy it"
okie okie....
lets has a enjoyable school life

actually felt very sad
my dad told me
" i'm quite disappointed with ur result. "
im so sorry dad n mum
i really fear to promise
i really don't know i can do it anot
i'm scared ... sorry
T-T...

p/s : i had promised masako onesan i will write some abit japan . but til now i hvn write ><

a important day~

MUMMY

happy birthday

muakx muakx

love mum forever

without mummy

i wont be here today

wish mummy happy n healthy always

mum, i'm sorry

i'm not a good daughter

i'm sorry with my wrong behaviour

thank mum always support me

and always be with me

i'm sorry for all my fault

and thank for everything

mum, I LOVE U

happy birthday ya

today, i had received some thing sent by my dearest host family

they sent bac my jeans

and also present me some japanese food

tomoko sis was wrote a letter for me ^^

and some photo also

it's so touch

thank very much

i really happy can be urs family member

although i bring so many trouble for u all

but u all still treat me so good

really happy to met u all

hope can meet u all again

thank for everything n i love u

my dearest host family

happy birthdaY dear ~

Happy Birthday

happy birthday to my dear

muakz muakz

hope u hv a wonderful birthday ohh ^^

time always flew so fast

how many birthday we through?

hope our frenship forever n ever

love u much much ya

dear, all the best n gd luck ya

if u need me

i'm always be with u

yesterday, we celebrated daniel n yenny birthday
daniel ( 11th jan) and yenny (12th jan)
happy birthday ya ^^
we went to the curve
( yenny,daniel,nana,carmen,elra,shayn,kok keong, kumar, thomas, ah fai, ji cong n me ^^)
hope everyone were really enjoy ya
i reached home around 12
and i hvn finish my home work yet
opz.... ><
however, it's really enjoyable
for sure, i love to with they guys
love u all much much ya
muakzz...

~daniel and yenny "blowing" candle

~me n nana

~me ,nana, yenny n carmen

frenship forever n ever ^^

~Daniel n me

happy birthday ya ^^

手紙

i love this meaningful song ....

手紙 ～拝啓 十五の君へ～
アンジェラ·アキ

拝啓　この手紙読んでいるあなたは　どこで何をしているのだろう
十五の僕には誰にも話せない　悩みの種があるのです
未来の自分に宛てて書く手紙なら
きっと素直に打ち明けられるだろう
今　負けそうで　泣きそうで　消えてしまいそうな僕は
誰の言葉を信じ歩けばいいの？
ひとつしかないこの胸が何度もばらばらに割れて
苦しい中で今を生きている今を生きている

拝啓　ありがとう　十五のあなたに伝えたい事があるのです
自分とは何でどこへ向かうべきか　問い続ければ見えてくる
荒れた青春の海は厳しいけれど
明日の岸辺へと　夢の舟よ進め
今　負けないで　泣かないで　消えてしまいそうな時は
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの
大人の僕も傷ついて眠れない夜はあるけど
苦くて甘い今を生きている

人生の全てに意味があるから　恐れずにあなたの夢を育てて
Keep on beliving
負けそうで　泣きそうで　消えてしまいそうな僕は誰の言葉を信じ歩けばいいの？
ああ　負けないで　泣かないで　消えてしまいそうな時は
自分の声を信じ歩けばいいの
いつの時代も悲しみを避けては通れないけれど
笑顔を見せて　
今を生きていこう今を生きていこう

拝啓　この手紙読んでいるあなたが
幸せな事を願います

Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
Where are you and what are you doing now?
For me who's 15 years old
There are seeds of worries
I can't tell anyone
If it's a letter addressed to my future self,
Surely I can confide truly to myself
Now, it seems that I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
This one-and-only heart has been broken so many times
In the midst of this pain, I live the present
Dear you,
Thank you
I have something to tell the 15-year-old you
If you continue asking what and where you should be going
You'll be able to see the answer
The rough seas of youth may be tough
But row your boat of dreams on
Towards the shores of tomorrow
Now, please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
For me as an adult, there are sleepless nights when I'm hurt
But I'm living the bittersweet present
There's meaning to everything in life
So build your dreams without fear
Keep on believing
Seems like I'm about to be defeated and cry
For someone who's seemingly about to disappear
Whose words should I believe in?
Please don't be defeated and please don't shed a tear
During these times when you're seemingly about to disappear
Just believe in your own voice
No matter era we're in
There's no running away from sorrow
So show your smile, and go on living the present
Go on living the present
Dear you,
Who's reading this letter
I wish you happiness...

手紙 = letter

pei pei , pui yin n me~